hate and hurt are both destructive emotions. U continue this way you will end up with a heart attack. Do you get chest pain from the way you hate and hurt. If u have others dependent on you, you may not live long you know.
ok.
I was wondering where you are going with you thoughts.. you want to kill someone in your pain , you want to kill yourself in your pain .. or you simply find things unbearable. Pain is a twisted thing. Or its just that you have lost the desire to live anymore. Everything seems so intense with you. Or its the usual I hate you because you hurt me... investing all your life in the love and hate of one person can be highly suffocating. You become oblivious to everyone else around you because you end up so lost in yourself, your feelings and your hurt. The worst case is death, after that what does life matter. I mean even if you kill a person, its ends with that, not that you get the satisfaction through killing them either. Revenge or whatever your hurt through hate is a very substandard action. If someone has hurt you now, you are hurt now, it dosent matter if they hut they same way you did 10 years in the future. It dosent erase your pain.
Another thing Anetra either this phase many people go thru those who are weak commit suicide because the pain is so vast they can not resist I read allot this past months on many issues from what I went thru you know what ignorant Assholes tell me? Why aren't you doing something for yourself....
I wish I can curse them but inside I say this (hold on stay inside "anger" I know what I am doing instead of making that person richer) I am making my soul, mind and body richer NOW A HOLES
I wish I can tell this to their face... the information you get is the most important thing because once you need it you will remember how to come out of any future situation... its not given to me I have to learn it....
Holly expirience * this body holding me... (pain) is a reminder I am not (ALONE) "mind, soul, body" get it?
people come out of this in 3 forms:
You become a bitch, a better person or you die (suicide)
I am in transition or something, not violent I would never hurt anyone...
Anetra I read already about 20 books on revenge and they all state the same thing
From a story of a Mother whos Ex husband left her in the street without her kids to a Bsuiness man whom lost all things thanks to his wife...
The same thing was repeated in their book "I am not out to hurt but to make justice that serves me well"
in my own words I am trying to explain to you what hurts you is usually not justify else I would be in Jamaica waisting my money on something like a cocktail no?
What is fair to you shouldbe fair to the other person and consider...
That is the law of earth all has its circle and all comes around
But i'm no way suggesting that you should not protect yourself from the hurt. You need to watch your back. But the way you're about it... dosent seem like the best way.
By the way Honey even Jesus will have his turn to be justify because he will judge us according to Christian Religion he is seating waiting for your death to judge you according to what you did and he can do this because he paid this sacrafice his death for yours his Blood was PURE get it? No sin he ever did not even with the mind etc...
if you can feel comfortable walkign through a graveyard amidst mid of the night, with blood on your face and not all those voodoo kindo f noises and not get affected by your surroundings ... .. feel in skin with it... it feels too dark to acknowledge as pure. Such a surrounding would get under my skin especially in the dead of the night.
maybe your need to detach your mind from your body so that you cannot do yourself or anybody else any harm. Timeschedule your life and adopt a hard work pattern to exhaust your body so your mind will have not time to think .. get proactive(as you see it) or destructive(as i see it)
Carolyn Myss - check this one out. -
and yes I been having chest pains since now 1 year and 7 months why?
I was wondering where you are going with you thoughts.. you want to kill someone in your pain , you want to kill yourself in your pain .. or you simply find things unbearable. Pain is a twisted thing. Or its just that you have lost the desire to live anymore. Everything seems so intense with you. Or its the usual I hate you because you hurt me... investing all your life in the love and hate of one person can be highly suffocating. You become oblivious to everyone else around you because you end up so lost in yourself, your feelings and your hurt. The worst case is death, after that what does life matter. I mean even if you kill a person, its ends with that, not that you get the satisfaction through killing them either. Revenge or whatever your hurt through hate is a very substandard action. If someone has hurt you now, you are hurt now, it dosent matter if they hut they same way you did 10 years in the future. It dosent erase your pain.
I wish I can curse them but inside I say this (hold on stay inside "anger" I know what I am doing instead of making that person richer) I am making my soul, mind and body richer NOW A HOLES
I wish I can tell this to their face... the information you get is the most important thing because once you need it you will remember how to come out of any future situation... its not given to me I have to learn it....
Holly expirience * this body holding me... (pain) is a reminder I am not (ALONE) "mind, soul, body" get it?
people come out of this in 3 forms:
You become a bitch, a better person or you die (suicide)
I am in transition or something, not violent I would never hurt anyone...
Anetra I read already about 20 books on revenge and they all state the same thing
From a story of a Mother whos Ex husband left her in the street without her kids to a Bsuiness man whom lost all things thanks to his wife...
The same thing was repeated in their book "I am not out to hurt but to make justice that serves me well"
in my own words I am trying to explain to you what hurts you is usually not justify else I would be in Jamaica waisting my money on something like a cocktail no?
What is fair to you shouldbe fair to the other person and consider...
That is the law of earth all has its circle and all comes around
>>I am in transition or something, not violent I would never hurt anyone...
I doubt that.
Since your posts reek all about the big "I".
other than that i wish you good luck
if you can feel comfortable walkign through a graveyard amidst mid of the night, with blood on your face and not all those voodoo kindo f noises and not get affected by your surroundings ... .. feel in skin with it... it feels too dark to acknowledge as pure. Such a surrounding would get under my skin especially in the dead of the night.