do you have any repressed memories of your neighborhood priest sucking on your pecker when you were like 6 or 7? middleage is when those memories come forth, per freudian theory. I bet something of that sort's happening to you, hence this behavior you're exhibiting.
I like pussy waaay too much to be a homo but I also have an obvious adolesent bent of mind...and my insults reflect that. heck even my wife says so. but enough about me: you exhibit the classic symptoms of someone that had his priest suck on his pecker at a young age and liked it. but your regressive church which is stuck in the 14th century (only marginally better than islam which is stuck in the 7th) tells you it's a deep sin to admit your homosexual feelings. I bet you like watching your wife gangbanged too. I hear from trusted sources that catholic guilt manifests itself in strange and aberrant behavior. please stick around this website, we'll cure you just yet.

Someone has hijacked J's ID or he has stopped taking his medications.